She is as much a dreamer as I am practical. There are nights she stays up, her thoughts and dreams clouding my senses. Even as the practical me tries to get some sleep, she writes poetry all night — in my head. It runs into volumes at times, and I wake up groggy.
She is the creative one, I’m mundane. When I surprise myself and everyone else, it’s her doing...
She is commited even though I run away. She is honest; gives her all, loves without holding back. I, on the hand, I’m always on the run! Always. All ways.
She is as easy as I am complicated. Make no mistake — she twisted too, in her own little ways.
She listens to strange voices in her head. Replies to all my thoughts aloud. She even startles me with her profound, inane wisdom (Unlike mine, which is comic-born).
She sends up a silent prayer when I am scorning the blindness of God. She makes a wish at shooting stars and fallen lashes, while I turn away and pretend I didn’t see. She believes. And she is still in touch with Willie...
She is efficient. I pretend. She is melting wax while I am made of steel. She speaks to birds and leaves. And flowers and leaves. I walk along shaking my head in disbelief.
I flirt. She holds me back. She dreams. I live those dreams.
She is misunderstood. Hidden. Lost. Unnoticed. And that’s because I don’t let her come out and speak. I suffer too later, as punishment.
She remembers every little thing — cotton candies, stolen kisses, silent tears and a million dreams. And I? I don’t even remember how I had my eggs this morning, boiled or fried.
I like her when she is happy. Like a child. I like the way she laughs. Easily. Unlike my restricted smiles.
She sketches her thoughts on mist-kissed glass panes. She writes when she is spurred by thoughts or dreams. I, on the other hand... Er, I sold my, dreams and words to news reels.
She is every bit the superstar I am not. A dreamer, whose dreams I can’t fathom, Yet, I live them.
She’s Chrissie. My alter ego. And I am one with my duality :--)
--C for samneric.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
100 honest answers...
A random Facebook quiz...but for my eyes alone. Thanku priya-piyu...This was fun. And I was honest....
WHAT WAS YOUR
1. Last beverage: Pomegranate juice
2. Last phone call: Shrenik
3. Last text message: some stupid PRO
4. Last song you listened to: Juliet
5. Last time you cried: Yesterday, a lil
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Yes
7. Been cheated on: Nope
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: naa!
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope
FIRST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. White
13. Blue
14. Red
15. Made a new friend: yes, yayyy...modalali
16. Fallen out of love: yes, many times
17. Laughed until you cried: always
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: umm, yup
20. Found out someone was talking about you: all my life!!
21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: Yeah
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Not many...not like know know
23. How many kids do you want to have:
2-3
24. Do you have any pets: yes, finally
25. Do you want to change your name: noooooo
26. What did you do for your last birthday: had a lovely time with lovely people who love me... :))
27. What time did you wake up today: 10:30ish
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching Kantri, bachna eh hasseeno and audio release and woh lamhe and pretending to study.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: New York!! :)))
30. Last time you saw your Mother: last night
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: April 29 2007
32. What are you listening to right now: Keyboard humming
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeahh... my cousin who calls himself “Tome”!! :p
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now: Work
35. Most visited webpage: www.google.com
36. What's your real name: Christina Francis
37. Nicknames: Christie, Kitti, Crissie, Kuttu... and Chrrrrishhhteeee (ragfragger:))
38. Relationship Status: Ambiguous
39. Zodiac sign: Saggi
40. Male or female: Definitely female :P
41. Elementary: St Anns
42. High School: St Anns
43.College/University: St.Francis, OU
44. Hair colour: black-brown
45. Long or short: Short now
46. Height: 5’2”
47. Do you have a crush on someone: Umm, er...
48: What do you like about yourself : everything, almost
49. Piercings: Ears
50. Tattoos: eww, Nope
51. Righty or lefty: Righty
FIRSTS
52. First surgery: peircing my ears, with anesthesia. Gawd I’m a drama queen!
53. First piercing: Ears
54. First best friend(s): Mrinalini
55. First sport you joined: Athletics
56. First vacation: Kerala
57. First pair of trainers: Reebok!! :)) Rs 1,200 :O
58. First crush: Basketball spinning guy with a lot of cats.
RIGHT NOW!
59. Eating: Nothin..hungryyyy
60. Drinking: water.
61. I'm about to: go eat, drink, crash, noo study
62. Listening to: zzzzzzz
63. Waiting for: NY
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? : YESS
65. Get Married?: yes
66. Career?: Yeah...
WHICH IS BETTER
67. Lips or eyes?: whose? Both..
68. Hugs or kisses?: kisses, then hugs
69. Shorter or taller?: Taller..
70. Older or Younger?: Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous?: Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms?: Both...
73. Sensitive or loud?: Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship?: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant?: hesitant
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger?: yeah
77. Drank hard liquor?: sniffed it. and licked it. yuckk
78. Lost glasses/contacts?: all the time.
79. Sex on first date?: chieee
80. Broken someone's heart? :((
81. Had your own heart broken?: no
82. Been arrested?: no
83. Turned someone down?: lots of them
84. Cried when someone died?: Yesss :((
85. Fallen for a friend?: Maybe.. maybe not
DO YOU BELIEVE IN
86. Yourself?: Yes
87. Miracles?: Yes
88. Love at first sight?: Nooo
89. Heaven?: want to
90. Santa Claus?: no
91. Kiss on the first date?: maybe
92. Angels?: may be
93. God?: yes
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: does it count if you were over with one already...?
95. Did you sing today?: actually i did!!
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: If tht answer in 94 counts... but no, i didn’t mean to...
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: April 28, 2007
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The day I was at the 12 apostles, australia...
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: a little...
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: may be not on facebook. on my blog, here it is
WHAT WAS YOUR
1. Last beverage: Pomegranate juice
2. Last phone call: Shrenik
3. Last text message: some stupid PRO
4. Last song you listened to: Juliet
5. Last time you cried: Yesterday, a lil
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Yes
7. Been cheated on: Nope
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: naa!
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope
FIRST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. White
13. Blue
14. Red
15. Made a new friend: yes, yayyy...modalali
16. Fallen out of love: yes, many times
17. Laughed until you cried: always
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: umm, yup
20. Found out someone was talking about you: all my life!!
21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: Yeah
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Not many...not like know know
23. How many kids do you want to have:
2-3
24. Do you have any pets: yes, finally
25. Do you want to change your name: noooooo
26. What did you do for your last birthday: had a lovely time with lovely people who love me... :))
27. What time did you wake up today: 10:30ish
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching Kantri, bachna eh hasseeno and audio release and woh lamhe and pretending to study.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: New York!! :)))
30. Last time you saw your Mother: last night
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: April 29 2007
32. What are you listening to right now: Keyboard humming
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeahh... my cousin who calls himself “Tome”!! :p
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now: Work
35. Most visited webpage: www.google.com
36. What's your real name: Christina Francis
37. Nicknames: Christie, Kitti, Crissie, Kuttu... and Chrrrrishhhteeee (ragfragger:))
38. Relationship Status: Ambiguous
39. Zodiac sign: Saggi
40. Male or female: Definitely female :P
41. Elementary: St Anns
42. High School: St Anns
43.College/University: St.Francis, OU
44. Hair colour: black-brown
45. Long or short: Short now
46. Height: 5’2”
47. Do you have a crush on someone: Umm, er...
48: What do you like about yourself : everything, almost
49. Piercings: Ears
50. Tattoos: eww, Nope
51. Righty or lefty: Righty
FIRSTS
52. First surgery: peircing my ears, with anesthesia. Gawd I’m a drama queen!
53. First piercing: Ears
54. First best friend(s): Mrinalini
55. First sport you joined: Athletics
56. First vacation: Kerala
57. First pair of trainers: Reebok!! :)) Rs 1,200 :O
58. First crush: Basketball spinning guy with a lot of cats.
RIGHT NOW!
59. Eating: Nothin..hungryyyy
60. Drinking: water.
61. I'm about to: go eat, drink, crash, noo study
62. Listening to: zzzzzzz
63. Waiting for: NY
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? : YESS
65. Get Married?: yes
66. Career?: Yeah...
WHICH IS BETTER
67. Lips or eyes?: whose? Both..
68. Hugs or kisses?: kisses, then hugs
69. Shorter or taller?: Taller..
70. Older or Younger?: Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous?: Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms?: Both...
73. Sensitive or loud?: Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship?: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant?: hesitant
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger?: yeah
77. Drank hard liquor?: sniffed it. and licked it. yuckk
78. Lost glasses/contacts?: all the time.
79. Sex on first date?: chieee
80. Broken someone's heart? :((
81. Had your own heart broken?: no
82. Been arrested?: no
83. Turned someone down?: lots of them
84. Cried when someone died?: Yesss :((
85. Fallen for a friend?: Maybe.. maybe not
DO YOU BELIEVE IN
86. Yourself?: Yes
87. Miracles?: Yes
88. Love at first sight?: Nooo
89. Heaven?: want to
90. Santa Claus?: no
91. Kiss on the first date?: maybe
92. Angels?: may be
93. God?: yes
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: does it count if you were over with one already...?
95. Did you sing today?: actually i did!!
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: If tht answer in 94 counts... but no, i didn’t mean to...
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: April 28, 2007
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The day I was at the 12 apostles, australia...
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: a little...
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: may be not on facebook. on my blog, here it is
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